Tuesday, May 04, 2004
Crrreeeaaaak...(that's me coming out of the blogging cellar)
Well hello all. It's been six months, and for those of you masochists who kept coming back hoping to be rewarded, only to be let down....BRAVO, I say, BRAVO!!!! Your efforts have been rewarded. Now for the update.
I kinda quit blogging because there came a point where I felt my time was better served looking for work. I graduated with my B.S. (how appropriate, as I'm not really any smarter for having done it) in Human Development on December 13th. Of course this meant the beginning of the next chapter in my life, looking for the real payoff for all that "busy work". And so began my quest for a job, and a long hiatus from blogging.
Every time I would think about blogging, I would remember that my wife was at work supporting us. She really is a remarkable woman. This time was a severe test of the stuff our marriage was made of. Thus far, it seems we passed.
But now I have a job. As of three weeks ago, I joined the great sub-culture of "slaves to the man". It's not what they promised me when they (the academic "man") told me I would be much more employable with a degree. Granted, I do make more than before, but just barely, and truth be told, I probably could have landed this one without the paper. Sure, I applied for hundreds of better jobs that paid better money, and I worked my tail off in follow up, but nothing come of them. But whatever, I'm not bitter or upset about it.
Seriously, I'm really not. I'm thankful that God has seen fit to get me to the place in life that I'm in. Sure, all of my previous expectations have been shattered. Sure, all of the things I thought I would have accomplished by now are still sitting out there in the future, but my life is good. I have a wife who loves me dearly. I have a job that we could scrimp by on when my wife quits working, and we're finally trying to conceive our first child.
YEP....WE'RE FINALLY TRYING. Honestly, and I mean this as much as I've ever meant anything, should God deign to bless my life with a child, that will be the crowning accomplishment of my life. It's been very difficult for me, watching the years slip by and in no position to have a child, mostly due to not being married until 11 months ago. All I have ever wanted out of life, and I do mean ever, is to be a good husband (I'll let you know when I reach that one) and a good father (as of yet to be tested). Sure there were other goals, but they were all extremely inconsequential to me in light of this.
Sure, I used to think I'd raise a family as large as the one I grew up in (I have seven brothers and sisters), in fact I longed to do so. But then I used to think I'd have been married no later than 22, and look how that turned out. I'm glad I didn't now, as one smile from my wife lights up my entire day; it really does, and I didn't even know her at 22.
I guess what I'm getting at is this. I could bitch and moan and complain about all the things that went wrong in life, that didn't work out the way I though they would or should (those of you who've known me throughout many years can attest that there are many freak occurrences in my life that just don't happen to the average person). But doing so would rob me of the joy I have in the blessings God has seen fit to shower upon me. A wonderful parish in our most glorious Church, a wife who has and does sacrifice herself daily for me, a job that can support a family, and hopefully in the months to come, now a child.
I'll keep you updated, and hopefully with some regularity now. Thanks for checking back.
Well hello all. It's been six months, and for those of you masochists who kept coming back hoping to be rewarded, only to be let down....BRAVO, I say, BRAVO!!!! Your efforts have been rewarded. Now for the update.
I kinda quit blogging because there came a point where I felt my time was better served looking for work. I graduated with my B.S. (how appropriate, as I'm not really any smarter for having done it) in Human Development on December 13th. Of course this meant the beginning of the next chapter in my life, looking for the real payoff for all that "busy work". And so began my quest for a job, and a long hiatus from blogging.
Every time I would think about blogging, I would remember that my wife was at work supporting us. She really is a remarkable woman. This time was a severe test of the stuff our marriage was made of. Thus far, it seems we passed.
But now I have a job. As of three weeks ago, I joined the great sub-culture of "slaves to the man". It's not what they promised me when they (the academic "man") told me I would be much more employable with a degree. Granted, I do make more than before, but just barely, and truth be told, I probably could have landed this one without the paper. Sure, I applied for hundreds of better jobs that paid better money, and I worked my tail off in follow up, but nothing come of them. But whatever, I'm not bitter or upset about it.
Seriously, I'm really not. I'm thankful that God has seen fit to get me to the place in life that I'm in. Sure, all of my previous expectations have been shattered. Sure, all of the things I thought I would have accomplished by now are still sitting out there in the future, but my life is good. I have a wife who loves me dearly. I have a job that we could scrimp by on when my wife quits working, and we're finally trying to conceive our first child.
YEP....WE'RE FINALLY TRYING. Honestly, and I mean this as much as I've ever meant anything, should God deign to bless my life with a child, that will be the crowning accomplishment of my life. It's been very difficult for me, watching the years slip by and in no position to have a child, mostly due to not being married until 11 months ago. All I have ever wanted out of life, and I do mean ever, is to be a good husband (I'll let you know when I reach that one) and a good father (as of yet to be tested). Sure there were other goals, but they were all extremely inconsequential to me in light of this.
Sure, I used to think I'd raise a family as large as the one I grew up in (I have seven brothers and sisters), in fact I longed to do so. But then I used to think I'd have been married no later than 22, and look how that turned out. I'm glad I didn't now, as one smile from my wife lights up my entire day; it really does, and I didn't even know her at 22.
I guess what I'm getting at is this. I could bitch and moan and complain about all the things that went wrong in life, that didn't work out the way I though they would or should (those of you who've known me throughout many years can attest that there are many freak occurrences in my life that just don't happen to the average person). But doing so would rob me of the joy I have in the blessings God has seen fit to shower upon me. A wonderful parish in our most glorious Church, a wife who has and does sacrifice herself daily for me, a job that can support a family, and hopefully in the months to come, now a child.
I'll keep you updated, and hopefully with some regularity now. Thanks for checking back.
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